im worried- thoughts

you know, ive been reading 1984 lately again and not only does it seem extremely similar to the world we have today but...we're becoming worse than 1984.
You know 1984 in light of what i see every day...not in the mainstream news which exists either to put you in a dream world or scare you about things that dont exist, but in real information sources..everyday i see more and more brutality and torture and just pure evil.
I cant fathom sometimes where this un adulterated evil comes from, i have problems killing very injured birds that have to be killed cause theyr in pain...i dont kill flys these days.
I dont hate these people anymore...what must be the state of their souls to be able to calmly kill?....thousands in some cases.
And what awefull consequences will befall them when this virtual reality game is over for them?

I think theyre so lost, just lead down this path over evil never having lived a life which shows them what good is.
Just drunk and possesed by the power they thin they get from this.

Forgive them, for they know not what they do.